My Caterpillars

I had it in me

As I had my sweet little bee

With me.

The newness of it,

Though bloomed out

Afresh,

When felt I again

Two lives alive in me.

Bloomed out

The two caterpillars

From not the wedlock,

But the love galore

He decanted on me.

Every touch he touched

Was divinity personified

For me.

Blessed I am thus,

To have his seeds in me.

World knows not

Being loved how it feels to be.

Understands only they

The language of bondage and slavery.

My Caterpillars!

So,

Dreams of yours

To bloom into a butterfly,
Buzzing around

In joy and glee,

Is something mum scares to fulfill. 

Life I can promise you

Till the dusk tomorrow.

Forgive mum

For putting you through this sorrow.

My Caterpillars!
Muma’s secrets you will be.

Deep concealed.

So,

Remain you will in my soul

Like life’s unforgotten reel.

Begs mum to two of you.

Grant me a chance once more

In years to come.

To roe you,

To nurture you,

To blossom you,

Into colorful butterflies,

Fluttering around

Psychedelic flowers

Of joy and spree.

 

Muma loves your dear

Muma’s weak.

Muma’s poor.

Muma’s helpless.

Muma loses her temper.

Muma, though, loves you dear.

Baby, until you are there,

Muma’s mind will work clear.

This world is in fear

of muma’s strength that is sheer.

Tries them so hard to break

Muma with ideas queer.

Trust me baby

All will be fine.

Have faith

In your prayer.

Muma’s going to be alright.

Adu’s gonna be just and might.

There will be no more shedding of tears.

Our life will be bounded by

Love and cheers.

Your smile is my light

So …

Hug me tight.

Kiss me bright.

And erase all my fright.

Together you and me

can capture this day and night.

Patient we have to be.

To fly like birds free.

Baby, I love you is all I can say now

To stand by you always is what I vow. 

Enough! I can’t do it anymore.

Protect me from this world.

I don’t want to do it anymore.

Weak I want to be.

Strength gain I don’t want to anymore.

Curl me up,

Close me up,

In your iron chest.

Shed let me my sobs

Till I tear up no more.

Leave me no more desolate

In the intersection of these

four roads.

Clueless I am.

Scared I am.

Where to turn,

To run.

Until I see the shade of you

In the direction of any road.

Helpless you’ve been enough.

Can’t you see?

It leaves me in the lurch too.

Make me your woman.

That’s how you can stand by me.

No money,

No flower,

No gifts,

Can give it to me.

Seeing you in glee

Makes me happy and free.

Small things

Make you sound good and admirable to me.

Guffaws I like crazy

When you be with me.

Free what it is to be

You taught me.

Now want you me to be free.

Free from your love.

What is it to be free?

If you leave me alone in the sea

Of your love

With a lost key.

I’m crying.

Crying hard.

For feel I alone and desperate

And worthless

Without you by my side.

Say you love me.

Promise I

You won’t regret that tad.

For I will remain your slave

Till I’m cold and hard.

I am what I am. Let me be as what I am.

Let me be as what I am.

I am what I am.

Change me not.

Condition me not.

Push me not.

Pull me not.

Hold me not.

Scold me not.

I am what I am.

Let me be as what I am.

Right I am for what I am.

Wrong I am for what you think I am.

Right or wrong

Decides not what I am.

I am what I am.

Let me be as what I am.

My follies make me what I am.

My mistakes are the fun I have.

Learns me not from all I have.

That’s what makes me what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Family,

Friends,

Brother,

Sister,

Husband,

Son,

Though I have.

Count me not

as a sheep or cattle

living and grazing in herd.

Shepherd I need not

to tend my life.

Individual I am.

I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Bog me not

with the societal pressure.

Force me not into the apologetic confessions

of my blunders.

Scare me not

with the duty sermons.

Burden not my shoulders

with the onus to uphold

the family name.

Trust me not

to maintain your fame.

I am what I am.

Let me be as what I am.

Lame I am.

Lazy I am.

Fickle I am.

Insane I am.

Dork I am.

Take me as what I am.

Or let me be as what I am.

Understands me not

what you say.

Because my thoughts

makes me what I am.

I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Rebel daughter I am,

Unruly wife I am.

Careless mother I am.

Impolite sister I am.
Impractical lover I am.

Unworthy friend I am.

I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Risks I take.

Botches I make.

Impulsive are my decisions.

Messy are my mind creations.

But I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Weeps I hard.

Laughs I harder.

My adrenaline swings

between zenith and nadir.

People you are

I know.

You can’t take it farther.

I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Swims I in the mountains,

Climbs I the water.

Touches I the sunlight

Basks I in the moonlight.

Weird I am.

But I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Lonely I am.

Friendly I am.

Weak I am.

Strong I am.

Scary I am.

Cheerful I am.

Trustworthy I am.

Bitch I am.

I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.

Changed me everyone a lot.

Rebounded me back to what I am.

Force not me to be what I am not.

Because I am what I am.

So let me be as what I am.